Introduction

My twenty-five year long process of awakening has been an awkward and often painful experience. At times the pull from Home, from the non-physical side, has been overwhelmingly strong and made it difficult to endure living in the dense three-dimensional world. It seems my emotional scars need to be healed and cleared forever in order to overcome what I call "my church mouse level". However, moving forward is the only option as I morph from the chrysalis into the butterfly state. My long-term lesson has been that instead of pushing myself I have to allow the birthing of my new Self.

I feel vulnerable when interacting in the Old World because I know that I still get easily disconnected. That is why going out among people is becoming less and less desirable, since it involves being confronted with the harshness of people in their struggle for survival, to stand the horrendous noise level, to eat the lower quality food, etc. Yet I know that I am on my journey of becoming all that I can be, on my path to self-mastery as a deliberate creator on Earth.

Energy Gate Opening - January 22, 2003

Ever since I set higher standards for the quality of my life it has become difficult to endure the pollution of the back country culture of "Offroading-Gunshooting-Boomboxing". I had thrown a temper tantrum on the day five new neighbors on offroad vehicles started racing up and down the easement dirt road, 50 feet distant from our trailer home. The noise pollution plus the dust were so horrendous that I felt threatened in my very existence. It was impossible to block it out and concentrate on anything. I ran to the fence and waved my arms asking them to stop. I angrily expressed that this is a residential area and that I live here for the quiet and that the park is 4 miles from here, where they can go and ride their offroad vehicles. Back in the house I began raging and wanting to leave, because I couldn't stand any longer the thought of having to live among barbarians for evermore. I somehow cornered myself into a crisis situation and collapsed into a minor nervous breakdown. My husband helped me throughout the day to realign my energies and re-gain my balance. He said that all my behavior reminds him of Madame Blavatsky and that he really thinks that I am Madame Blavatsky. "And I think you are Moses", I replied. He sometimes does call me "Madame Blavatsky" and I in return brush it off by calling him "Moses".

Suddenly I felt overcome with the familiar body sensations that indicate non-physical presences standing behind me. I got flooded with insights regarding Madame Blavatsky. In an instant I knew that I have been aware of her and her likeness since my early twenties, yet I never read her works of Theosophy. Instead I studied the Anthroposophy movement of Rudolf Steiner who had created his own offspring of Theosophy. In Steiner's biography I saw the picture of Madame Blavatsky, and I remembered that I felt uncomfortable looking at these piercing eyes.

Simultaneously it came to my mind that in my mid-thirties I once almost bought from a friend "The Secret Doctrine".

I also remembered that I had long ago read a book written by a psychiatrist whose wife channeled the deceased. In one chapter she described a brief contact with Madame Blavatsky who wanted to convey the message that things were not at all the way she had described in her books and basically cancelled the value of her own teachings. How strange that I suddenly recalled this supposed Blavatsky message, yet I didn't recall anything else from that book, nor its title and author. I realized that by just thinking of Madame Blavatsky I instantly could recall the image of her likeness with the piercing eyes which I saw only once 35 years ago.

Body sensations washed in waves over me again. Suddenly I remembered the scene in which my mother "broke my will", when I was two years old. Back in Germany after World War II the level of mass consciousness was such that a well-behaved child was not allowed to have a will of its own. My parents undoubtedly wanted to be good parents and my mother proudly told at family reunions the story of how she broke my will, for I was the most rebellious of her five children. She then described the incident that happened when I was a little over two years old and when I was especially stubborn. She said that she got enough of it and grabbed me by my upper arms and lifted me up and stumped me with my behind on the table, vocalizing her anger that she had enough of a naughty child, once and for all. I was so staggered from the impact that I stopped crying and breathing.

I suddenly knew that this was the moment where I had to decide whether to remain in the body or to reemerge into the non-physical. I was weaned from diapers before I was one year old, so there was probably no diaper that could have softened the impact of the stumping on the table. My tailbone did not get broken, but my lower first and second chakra or energy centers must have been compressed und pushed back and to some degree got shut down. At this moment my Inner Being must have concluded that I should stay in this body and be able to handle the impact.

From this point on I became an obedient and willing girl. I learned from the incident not to mess with my mother and not to have a will of my own.

However, while I was recalling this early childhood trauma, I did not feel any phantom pain, but I was aware that a massive healing and shifting on all levels was happening at the very moment. My husband watched while I was expressing to him what was going through my mind and what I felt in my body. The situation did not feel stressful. I was calm yet alert; and I knew that all I had to do was to remain with my feet firmly on the ground and breathe consciously.

From my now-viewpoint I can understand that my mother needed to tone me down to the energy level comfortable to her. She told me that my birth was the most painful of her five children and that I was born 'looking red like a lobster', which to me indicates a discord or friction between the two different energies of mother and child.

The early breaking-of-my-will incident caused me to suffer from about a thousand insecurities throughout my life. Although I had left my parent's home at age nineteen, throughout most of my adult life I hated my mother and blamed her for all of my life's hardship. From age thirty-five on I read self-help books and looked for therapeutic help. Altogether I had about 220 therapy sessions in trying to regain my balance.

Today I know that I blamed my mother out of practiced human habit, for it simply felt better having an outside person to blame for my feeling of powerlessness. - - I want to mention here that today I have a beautiful relationship with my 83-year old mother in Germany. We talk over the phone and I love sending her flowers and gifts from America. She is even willing to try out the innovative products which I had sent her. (smile)

Who Was Madame Blavatsky?

After receiving the insights about Madame Blavatsky I spent the following weeks surfing the Internet for information regarding Madame Blavatsky and Theosophy. What a lightsurfer adventure it was! The more I looked the more showed up. I think most of her works can be read on the Internet. What I learned online within a month I could never have acquired six years ago without the Internet. I even downloaded the image of Madame Blavatsky's seal.

For those readers who are not familiar with Madame Blavatsky and her teaching let me sum up and share what I learned and gathered online from different sources:

Madame Helena Petrovna Blavatsky was born in 1831 as a Russian noble woman; she died in 1891 in London.

She gathered, documented, and collected the sacred and holy scriptures from around the world, adding up to 14 volumes. Her main works are "Isis Unveiled", published 1877, and "The Secret Doctrine", published in 1888.

She named her teachings "Theosophy", which can be translated into "divine wisdom" or "godly teaching".

In 1875 she founded the Theosophical Society in New York.

Madame Blavatsky herself claimed that she was selected as a messenger from the fraternity representing the "Sons of the Fire-Mist", an ancient society of adepts who hold the knowledge of the divine wisdom religion of planet Earth and humanity. Madame Blavatsky stated, "My Master El Morya and the Master Koot Hoomi …from them we have derived all the Theosophical truths". There is an amazing picture in the Blavatsky-Archive's picture gallery showing Madame Blavatsky with Kuthumi (Koot Hoomi), El Moraya (El Morya), and St. Germain.

By the end of her life she had encircled the globe seven times in her mission as a Lightbringer. In her travels, it said, "she contacted oriental masters and rescued ancient wisdom from centuries of slumber."

The following summary I took from the website of the Theosophical Society, Theosophical.org; quote:

"The three objects of the Theosophical Society are:

-	To form a nucleus of the Universal Brotherhood of Humanity without distinction of race, creed, sex, caste or color.
-	To encourage the comparative study of religion, philosophy and science.
-	To investigate the unexplained laws of nature and the powers latent in Humanity."

(End of quotation.)

The following text is lifted from the website Blavatsky.net, quote:

"Checklist of Some Principles of Theosophy"
Some of its principles are:

• Everything in the universe originates from one boundless, eternal, unknowable source. After a period of manifested existence the universe returns to that source. The universe itself is an organic whole, alive, intelligent, conscious, and divine.
• The laws of nature are the result of intelligent forces.
• The law of karma holds throughout the universe. It operates at all levels, ensuring justice, harmony, and balance.
• We reincarnate into successive lives. Once we have reached the human level we do not regress back into animal forms.
• The law of karma acts over our successive lives to ensure justice. (We don't get away with it.) We are the cause of every joy and pain in our own life.
• A law of cycles provides fundamental structure at all levels. Two examples are our pattern of reincarnation, and the continuing "lives" of the universe as it appears, then returns to its source."
• Analogy and correspondence provide fundamental structure for the universe. This is a broad statement of the Hermetic axiom - "As above, so below.
• Evolution applies on a grand scale to all of life.
• Soul gets involved in this world of matter. It experiences and learns. Soul then works its way back in a long pilgrimage to its primal source. This again follows a cyclic pattern.
• This evolution achieves experience, self-awareness, and ever increasing perfection. Evolution occurs on the physical, mental, and spiritual planes.
• "Survival of the fittest" along with gradual accumulation of small beneficial changes does not explain the "origin of the species". The origin of the species is due to intelligent design.
• Humanity has experienced significant evolution in long periods on the continents (not islands) of Atlantis and Lemuria.
• There is a seven fold constitution of man ranging from the physical plane to the purely spiritual plane.
• Thoughts are tangible objects on higher planes. Every thought and action has its effect on us and on our surroundings and has a karmic consequence.
• The three higher planes of this constitution form the "higher self" and that is what reincarnates from life to life and accumulates the experience, the lessons, the virtues. The lower planes form the "lower self" and are the vehicle used by the higher self while it is living in this active testing ground of incarnate life.
• At the moment of death we have a review of our life just past - as we cast off this physical frame. After a short period, that varies greatly between individuals, we cast off other lower aspects of our constitution and the reincarnating self begins a long period of merciful, earned, rest before the next birth.
• Often during this life, our spiritual nature is obscured in our self-centered daily lives as we cater to our immediate needs and desires. But the spiritual self is always there to guide us if we seek it with strong earnest desire.
• We can strive to reach our higher self by: - Listening to our still small voice of conscience. - Noting the dreams from the higher self. - Developing our intuition. - Meditating. - Studying principles of the Wisdom Religion. - Aligning ourselves with Nature. - Engaging in action for the greater good. - Carefully reading the events of our daily life.
• Brotherhood is a fact in nature. We are ONE at the highest spiritual component of our nature. We are sparks from one flame. We are the fingers on one hand. We are ONE at other levels as well.
• We should:
  - Understand we are not separate from humanity or the world.
  - Emphasize brotherhood, altruism, and compassion in our daily lives.
  - Strive to know our higher self.
  - As a guiding rule - act for and as the Self of All.
• The religions of the world are branches on the tree whose trunk is the one ancient - once universal - wisdom religion. The religions are the tributaries of one great river. (But they borrow from each other to make the actual details much more complex.)
• Mythology often transmits some of this knowledge in symbolic form.
• Periodically, great teachers come amongst us to help us in this evolutionary path. They may create another branch on the tree.
• Humanity's potential is infinite and every being has a contribution to make toward a grander world. We are all in it together. We are one."

(End of quotation.)

Dear Reader, after this extensive checklist let me add only three quotes about the person Madame Blavatsky and her influence as seen by others:

Quote 1: (Blavatsky.net. - article excerpt by Henry T. Edge)

"In the 19th century, imperialism had reached its height. Western nations were so convinced of the superiority of the white races that they had no compunction about exploiting their colonies. In this environment, Madame Blavatsky taught the first principle of occultism - the brotherhood of all humanity, the unity of all races. … She presented ideas and concepts that unified science, religion and philosophy-ideas showing a spiritual purpose and design behind the facts of science, as well as giving spiritual depth to religion and philosophy." (End of quotation)

Quote 2: (Theosociety.org - "H.P. Blavatsky and the Theosophical Movement" by Charles J. Ryan)

"…HPB saw that the essential truths in all the great religions had been deeply honeycombed with error, and that for this reason religion had become an element of contention and division in the world. A return to an understanding of the ancient wisdom-religion - Theosophy - the spiritual center from which the rival faiths all diverged, is the only way to produce harmony among their followers, and thereby to take an immense step toward universal brotherhood. - In the words of G. De Purecker: "She saw how humanity had been drifting through the ages unaware of its birthright and unconscious of its dignity, how the indefiniteness of modern ideas had confused the minds of the people and engendered everywhere uncertainty and helpless doubt… and she left for posterity a body of teachings with power in them to change the whole world, and as it were to raise from the dead the Immortal Part of man." (End of quotation)

Quote 3: (Theosociety.org - article excerpt by Charles Johnston)

"She was the most perfect aristocrat I have ever known. There was something in her personality, her bearing, the light and power of her eyes, which spoke of a wider and deeper life, not needing lesser miracles to testify to it, because in itself miraculous. That was the greatest thing about her, and it was always there; this sense of a bigger world, of deeper powers, of unseen might; to those in harmony with her potent genius, this came as a revelation and incentive to follow the path she pointed out. To those who could not see with her eyes, who could not raise themselves in some measure to her vision, this quality came as a challenge, an irritant, a discordant and subversive force, leading them at last to an attitude of fierce hostility and denunciation. When the last word is said, she was greater than any of her works, more full of living power than even her marvelous writings. It was the intimate and direct sense of her genius, the strong ray and vibration of that genius itself, which worked her greatest achievements and won her greatest triumphs. Most perfect work of all, her will carried with it a sense and conviction of immortality. Her mere presence testified to the vigor of the soul."

(End of quotation)

I also learned that by the time of her death in 1891 Madame Blavatsky had worldwide 100,000 followers of her Theosophy movement. She was seen as The Light Bringer to the western world. Her admirers named her the Sphinx of the 19th century and for contemporaries she is the Mother of the New Age.

Also I remember reading that it was through Madame Blavatsky's teaching of Theosophy that Gandhi was induced to study his own heritage and that Albert Einstein kept "The Secret Doctrine' on his desk.

The Practical Applications - Walking the Talk

Madame Blavatsky stated in "The Secret Doctrine", "The conditions of evolution are within and not without, and by fortune are independent of circumstances and conditions of earthly life. That is why all shall awaken at some point, climbing and conquering peak after peak, and cooperating with nature by accomplishing the true purpose of life."

We are now living in this time where 'all shall awaken'. As the Explorer Race we have come far indeed. The Earth has been mapped, cities and nations built. We have acquired a highly evolved technology and are exploring outer space. Over the last few years the human family has become a global village where information can be spread around the globe within minutes.

Obviously the era of discovering our planet Earth required a human species with a frontier spirit, that is, with male attributes such as aggression, assertion, physical strength, and a desire for conquering. Subsequently, all cultures of our civilization evolved as systems of patriarchy, and our history is the story of change through violence and war.

Dear Reader, in switching back to the present, if you follow the political events on television, notice that in the centers of upheaval the female half of the population is excluded from public rights; in the worst areas of violence the females live under blankets, which they call burkas. Notice also that today - 130 years after the founding of the Theosophical Society - our male world leaders choose to focus on separation, not on the ideal of a Brotherhood of Man. It may soon become apparent to many that the cause for the global War on Terrorism is the imbalance of male and female energies on Earth. The human family will come to the realization that it is our male-logical, left-brain thinking that created the great crevasse between the human intellect and the human heart which we are facing.

However, taking on a broadened perspective enables us humans to perceive the returning of the female energy. As we all transition through the Shift of the Ages it will bring the necessary upgrading of consciousness to re-balance the energies on Earth. While standing at the crossroads it would serve us well to take inventory about what of the Old World is worth taking with us for the new beginning in the New Millennium.

Madame Blavatsky was a forerunner, seen as the single Light Bringer of her time. At this crucial time of the Shift we are many Bringers of the Light, this time we call ourselves Lightworkers, for it is us who chose to hold the Light and usher our brothers & sisters through the coming changes. By now there are hundreds of thousands of Lightworkers transmitting messages from our non-physical friends and counterparts; the Ascended Masters are now interacting with thousands.

The seeds of theosophical ideas have flowered abundantly throughout the New Age movement. Individually and globally, we the global Lightworker community have come far in our journey to enlightenment. We are celebrating great diversity among us, yet the essence is always the same, our concern is for the upliftment of humanity. We see ourselves as spiritual beings having human experiences on Earth. We now know that we are the creators of our own reality and that we have the power of the Universe at our fingertips.

Some of us focus on new languaging; for example, instead of 'Karma' we use "Law of Attraction", since the word Karma often has attached the judgment of good & bad.

We now meet in global online peace meditations; we created the Universal Crystal Grid or Christ Consciousness Grid; we have Master Healers who are specialists in DNA activation; without spaceships we interact with E.T.s.

On a personal level the Shift of the Ages can be understood as the shift from the doing-state to the being-state.

We all are learning to claim our mastership as divine creators on Earth.

From the New Millennium Viewpoint

Dear Reader, let me briefly touch on the three main subjects of Theosophy:

Brotherhood of Man

The 130-year old New Age Movement towards awakening and enlightenment needs to integrate a new language of energy awareness. As humans we use thoughts, words and script to contour and guide the energies towards our creative endeavors. For example, with globally fifty million awakened and awakening Lightworkers, most of them in women's bodies, the axiom 'Brotherhood of Man' requires adding the "Sisterhood of Women", in order to balance the energies as the first step to greater awareness. Our present time is all about the influx of feminine energy on planet Earth and its overall integration.

As a person Madame Blavatsky must also be seen as a citizen of her time. As a Russian noble woman she was born to be a leader; she inherited power, influence, and resources. She certainly embodied the big exception in her role as a woman in society; she obviously claimed for herself the privileges of a wealthy male, subsequently doors opened wherever she went. Being an occultist it was not her mission to question the gender roles. The emancipation movement was perused by the suffragettes as a political issue around that same time.

It is only now that the Divine Feminine comes back into balance on Earth; her return will bring the gift of spiritual enhancement for the entire human family. The ongoing influx of female energy will lead us into the era of peace and community building. Instead of "Brotherhood of Man" we are speaking of reaching Unity Consciousness, for we now know in our hearts that we are all one, spaceship Earth and we are one.

The human family now has the gift of the Internet, this marvelous tool for global communication, a tool Madame Blavatsky could not even have dreamt of 130 years ago.

For us the Lightworkers the time has come to put things into practice, to walk the talk by openly living in new ways, as examples for others. This is known as the process of spreading the great grassroots movement. The 21st century will mark the shift from outside exploration to inner exploration. The time to develop the divine powers latent in man has come.

Science - Philosophy - Religion

At the time of the founding of the Theosophical Society modern science was in its infant stages; in 1879 the light bulb was just invented. Meanwhile our high technology has reached the level of genetic engineering; we are creating clones with potential for good or bad…

However, a New Science has emerged which focuses on the interconnectedness of all life and the bridging of the physical and non-physical realms. Their scientists learned to access the non-physical worlds and to retrieve new information, leading to new inventions towards human "Self-Sufficiency". The keyword for the future is "Self-empowerment and empowering others" and will be reflected in all areas of life.

The churches' work of promoting the charities serves to bridge the gap between "Haves and Don't Haves"; it is the Old-World method of soothing the suffering of the exploited masses who live the lives of economic slaves.

In this century the different religions, science, and philosophy will be able to find bridges for a new understanding and cooperation.

The shortage mentality on Earth is a result of the Old-World-thinking of running out of resources, meant to manipulate the masses. As more and more people awaken to the awareness that they are conscious Creators on Earth we will be able to change the habit of lack-full thinking. We will spread the image where we all go to the "Niagara Falls of Abundance" with our buckets instead of teaspoons. (smile)

Connection with Nature

Since the sixties co-creation with Nature has been practiced and taught in the spiritual Findhorn Community in Scotland. The subject has been taken to the next level and elevated to the "Co-Creative Science" by Machaelle Small Wright of Perelandra-Ltd.com. It is about bringing humans and the forces of Nature together to consciously co-create. This area of inner exploration and further expansion of consciousness is the next adventure before me. In other words, the searching for our human connection with Nature will be the topic of my upcoming "Open Letter to Sheldon Adelson".

The Religions

Madame Blavatsky spoke of the organized "Churchianity" and called the church institution "a wealthy and domineering colossus." "No religion higher than truth", she proclaimed. As was then, today's church fathers still control the masses through the guise of religion. In their efforts to maintain the status quo they preach that the truth has been set in stone thousands of years ago. That is why the church is still mostly about moral judgments of right & wrong. I watch on TV that the churches in America as a Christian-dominated country are being haunted by their own dogmas, shaken by sexual scandals.

On the other hand, I learned that out of the contrast provided by the Christian fundamentalists, the wonderful "What Would Jesus Do" - Movement has emerged, declaring Jesus as the authority of their lives, but no church dogma. As an observer I have to say that the people in old Europe are more liberated than Americans in their relation to the religions. Since medieval times the church is known for "preaching water and drinking wine", that is why many choose not to put their lives into a religious framework.

Conclusion

I learned from my online study that practical theosophy can be explained as "a way of life, a standard of thought and action, a position assumed and retained throughout life." Being a self-made person I have been following my own, yet similar path of awakening to my potential. The driving force of my life has been my desire to be of value to my brothers & sisters. As I said before, I have chosen two contributions to the great paradigm shift on Earth: 1) My handbook "Who Wants To Be A Lightworker" for the spreading of a new career as a "Lightworker for America" and 2) the initiation of a Heaven-on-Earth Community called The Isle of Light Jacumba. In my chapter "Open Letter to the Local Community" I lined out the framework for this model community with its specific orientation. I think my guidelines are in resonance with what Madame Blavatsky presented 130 years ago in her teachings of Theosophy.

I am grateful for the opportunity of gaining an overview of Madame Blavatsky and her teachings of Theosophy through the WorldWideWeb. My admiration for her is tremendous, in fact, Madame Blavatsky has become one of my role models. It was a pleasure to tune into such glorious high-level information over several weeks, and it brought me much clarity for my own projects.

For years I have been receiving insights that my family of origin is that of the Promethean Spirit and that I am part of the continuation or perpetuation of this particular stream of consciousness. At this crucial time of the Shift we are many avatars and prophets of the Promethean Spirit walking the Earth. We are here to usher our brothers & sisters through the coming major changes. It is my present state of comprehension that the 'Sons of the Fire-Mist' were the avatars and prophets of the Promethean Spirit, and so was Madame Blavatsky, the Light Bringer. What I have in common with Madame Blavatsky, the Russian noble woman, is that I do have an inner knowing of the Russian soul, but I have no way yet of expressing it outwardly.

With my Homage to Madame Blavatsky I want to contribute to the revival of the ancient principles of Theosophy. My campaign for the elevation of the Lightworker status into a new occupation on Earth will serve the same goal of creating a better future for the human family.

Being the type of the lone servant, it will suit me best to follow the statement I read on the "United Lodge of Theosophists" website, which says, "The true Theosophist belongs to no cult or sect, yet belongs to each and all."

In Service,

KarinLLightworker

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